I am so stressed right now..

All I can think about is who I will disappoint if I can’t walk across the stage to receive my diploma. My grandparents who have been here all this time to watch me get this is in jeopardy because of my carelessness. My boyfriend, who has dealt with my school bullshit.. high school has really drained the life out of me to the point I just don’t care. Walking across the stage doesn’t seem that important to me. I haven’t accomplish anything. I didn’t do that great. It’s high school, it isn’t college. I know I will definitely do a lot better in college. It’ll be a brand new start. But for right now I could care less.. in the end the outcome of walking the stage or not, I am a graduate of Washington. I might of not walk the stage but I still have the diploma. No one will ask you when you’re going in for a job interview “where’s the picture of you walking the stage to receive your diploma?” In the end its the same thing. But I just need to make the few I care about, proud of me. And just not lose hope in me.